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Just existing...not living!

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Written by restlesssoul 27 October 2006 02:51

I am feeling numb...
The problem is I'm not feeling anything..Nothing interests me..nothing moves me..
I'm the eldest in the family,I have lot of responsibilities...as I have graduated my family expects me to earn..and they are right ,I am not denying it..
My peers are successful..But I dont feel enthusiastic..I am not careerdriven..
I am just existing and not living.
At 23 i should be full of life...energetic..
Should be into a job...maybe having a boyfriend..
but I'm so dull..each day passes in the same manner..
I suck big time.
I dont feel responsible.
I just wanna be like a gypsy..going to different places..self-centered..
I dont wannna be in one place..
Isnt it conflicting...??
I'm having so many mood fluctuations..
Sometimes I just wanna be alone..locked up in a room..
Sometimes I wanna be in the company of somebody...watch a movie..
sometimes I wanna cry my heart out..
And sometimes its opposite..I wanna laugh like a joker.
I AM NOT ABLE TO UNDERSTAND THIS AT ALL!

Comments from the community

Why would you need a sedative? Did you ask-for correcting your sleep cycle? You will see the results from the AD in about 4 weeks, whether the med suits you or not. If it doesn't don't hesitate to ask for a different medicine. My doc prescribed zoloft which had really bothersome sideeffects-until I told her I was really sick of this side effect business-then she said okay here's another one this has no known sideeffects-and I'm like-so why didn't you give me this in the first place-turns out the second one was a quarter of the price too. At the end of the day, doctors are business minded too, at least some of them.

Anyway, good to know you are on medication.Keep it up.Therapy would be good.It is a tough, painful process Many days I came home crying, even though I felt I was fine before the session.But eventually it gets rid of the garbage inside. It is immensely cleansing. You have to be very introspective to benefit from it, but once you are through and done with it, you will feel like a brand new person, clean, fresh, renewed and more grown up I guess- You can do it.

Written by TA, 27 October 2006 06:51

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